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Shhhh.
Can anyone hear it.
Shhhhhh, I said.
Please,
quiet.
Listen.
Do you hear it?
Don’t move,
just listen..
The heart pounds heavy
the hands grow shaky
the anxiety rips through
her tightening insides.
Can you hear it yet?
Shhh..

She’s helpless
she’s SCREAMING.
It’s so loud,
It echos in her head
pounding off the sides.
Vibrating her pounding heart.
Can’t you hear her?
She’s screaming,
She’s screeching,
She’s reaching,
out for you
our for anyone
anyone to hear her.
LISTEN!
But noone will
noone does
they can’t.
They don’t know how.

Her life is a shallow
schedule of events.
Knowledge of every
food product
she could ever want
or ever reach for.
Always pinching skin,
Mirrors stalk her,
Food haunts her.
Obsessive measures
her waist,
her hips,
her ass.
Obsessive measure
how much food
how less food
when to purge
Obsessive measures
her crunches
her miles ran
her push ups...
She tries so hard to
find the normal life
she plans every detail.
To fit all normalcy
all into one 24 hour day.
She’s so normal
She’s so bright
She’s so pretty
She’s captivating
only in sight.
Only in the right light.
Scared of her identity
she slips away at midnight
before the clock chimes twelve
she hides her fears in
the one thing she absolutely hates
she drowns her tears in melted ice cream
topped with frozen cherries.
She’s so cold.
Indulging in what she thinks
is her one enemy.
Disgusting, repulsive food
shove it in,
how much more.
Shove it in,
hate it,
love it,
eat it.
Disguise the true enemy,
Go on,
Disguise yourself
while you battle yourself.
Go on,
hurt yourself,
kill yourself.
Her mind is numb
Her heart is screaming.
But she has noone to care
She has noone to hear her
while shes screaming so loud.
Noone can hear it.
struggles with eating disorders,
anorexia,
bulimia,
binge eating...
struggles with recovery,
addiction,
and relapses.

about the inner struggles and the struggles with the outside world and relationships who do not have the disorder, and are so ignorant to the torment of the eating disorder's tolls on its persons struggling with the disease
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Nystori Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Beautiful! really touched me... <3
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Pixie-Stixxx Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is so good! May I use this at the poetry slam thingy I'm going to later this week? I'm in recovery and earlier I was looking for some poems to that effect, and I saw this and it's just... it's just awesome!
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growinluvhandles Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2012  Student Writer
Excellent!
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sarahkat3 Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2012  Student
This is so good, but so sad :(
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Katie-Venerelli Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It's horrible what society does to us.
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MapleRevival Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
God, I hate seeing myself in the mirror anymore...

Great poem.
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jdepp101 Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i can relate. great job :heart:
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purplemagic4567 Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2012  Student General Artist
i'm going through it... i can't tell anyone... i ... need... help...
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PoisonedCuts Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2011
these feeing are al too familiar :'( <3 beautiful poem ....
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EcoVegKitty26 Featured By Owner May 29, 2011
It made me cry, this is how i feel put into words and possibly my new favorite poem, thank you so much
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