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Can anyone hear it.
Shhhhhh, I said.
Do you hear it?
Don’t move,
just listen..
The heart pounds heavy
the hands grow shaky
the anxiety rips through
her tightening insides.
Can you hear it yet?

She’s helpless
It’s so loud,
It echos in her head
pounding off the sides.
Vibrating her pounding heart.
Can’t you hear her?
She’s screaming,
She’s screeching,
She’s reaching,
out for you
our for anyone
anyone to hear her.
But noone will
noone does
they can’t.
They don’t know how.

Her life is a shallow
schedule of events.
Knowledge of every
food product
she could ever want
or ever reach for.
Always pinching skin,
Mirrors stalk her,
Food haunts her.
Obsessive measures
her waist,
her hips,
her ass.
Obsessive measure
how much food
how less food
when to purge
Obsessive measures
her crunches
her miles ran
her push ups...
She tries so hard to
find the normal life
she plans every detail.
To fit all normalcy
all into one 24 hour day.
She’s so normal
She’s so bright
She’s so pretty
She’s captivating
only in sight.
Only in the right light.
Scared of her identity
she slips away at midnight
before the clock chimes twelve
she hides her fears in
the one thing she absolutely hates
she drowns her tears in melted ice cream
topped with frozen cherries.
She’s so cold.
Indulging in what she thinks
is her one enemy.
Disgusting, repulsive food
shove it in,
how much more.
Shove it in,
hate it,
love it,
eat it.
Disguise the true enemy,
Go on,
Disguise yourself
while you battle yourself.
Go on,
hurt yourself,
kill yourself.
Her mind is numb
Her heart is screaming.
But she has noone to care
She has noone to hear her
while shes screaming so loud.
Noone can hear it.
struggles with eating disorders,
binge eating...
struggles with recovery,
and relapses.

about the inner struggles and the struggles with the outside world and relationships who do not have the disorder, and are so ignorant to the torment of the eating disorder's tolls on its persons struggling with the disease
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Nystori Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Beautiful! really touched me... <3
Pixie-Stixxx Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is so good! May I use this at the poetry slam thingy I'm going to later this week? I'm in recovery and earlier I was looking for some poems to that effect, and I saw this and it's just... it's just awesome!
growinluvhandles Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2012  Student Writer
sarahkat3 Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2012  Student
This is so good, but so sad :(
Katie-Venerelli Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It's horrible what society does to us.
MapleRevival Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
God, I hate seeing myself in the mirror anymore...

Great poem.
jdepp101 Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i can relate. great job :heart:
purplemagic4567 Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2012  Student General Artist
i'm going through it... i can't tell anyone... i ... need... help...
PoisonedCuts Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2011
these feeing are al too familiar :'( <3 beautiful poem ....
EcoVegKitty26 Featured By Owner May 29, 2011
It made me cry, this is how i feel put into words and possibly my new favorite poem, thank you so much
BlueEyedBabe13 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2011
HeartlessEzzy Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2011  Student General Artist
"mirrors stalk her, food haunts her"

I can relate to this a lot...

Do U suffer from an eating disorder?
Candystripedlegs93 Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2010
I really connected to this (so much that I cried)
This is scarily accurate
UnforgivenMishap Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2010
Beautiful. Story of my life.
The-Almighty-Toaster Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2010
I suffer bulimia, and this is beautifully, yet agonisingly accurate.
NOT SAYING THE POETRYS' BAD!!! Just saying it's amazing how dead on this is.
FlightlessAngel95 Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2010
It's so beautifully descriptive... I LOVE it.
pancakes8888 Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2010
I can see that we all have the same feelings but still feel so unique and alone in this misery. Your poem is beautiful, I hope that we will win this battle pretty soon cause i am getting pretty tired of it.:)
dreaminjinx Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2010
i agree with you dear, and i wish strength to you too
x-Yuri-chan-x Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
This is absolutely awesome, sickiningly beautiful... great job! You captured the reality and lifestyle of having an eating disorder perfectly. :)
dreaminjinx Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2010
thank you so much
x-Yuri-chan-x Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome.
sminkle Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
I couldn't stop reading it. I saw everything happen like a story as the words flew by my eyes.
dreaminjinx Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2010
im glad you saw my words :)
EmptyEmotion Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2009  Professional Photographer
all i can say is WOW and SO TRUE....
tibi-the-emo-kid Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2009  Student Writer
Gave me shivers. xxx
insideruby Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2009
... *tear*
dreaminjinx Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2009
:) thank you
Emolie Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2009
terrifyingly accurate..
dreaminjinx Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2009
i'll take that as a compliment, i know... its very raw in its reality, thank you!
Emolie Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2009
it was a compliment. it's hard to explain and express such a thing in words. a talent i'd call it. your writing is beautiful.
TheBlackVampire Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2009
very powerful
dreaminjinx Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2009
thank you so much
Martywolf92 Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2008
some18kanal0n3 Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2008
WOW! :O Long! But didn't stop me nonetheless :)

Honestly, I think you can cut it off at "LISTEN!" and still have power to this message. And starting at "She's so normal" you can create a completely new poem.

Other than a few grammar errors and what not this is a remarkably great poem.

Is this poem a reflection of you? :S
dreaminjinx Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2008
thanks so much!
yeah, most if not all of my writing is just a free verse impromptu expression of something i feel. i totally agree with you, and i kinda intended the poem to be separated in two parts as i was writing it.. its just kinda what happened.

and i really should fix grammar, but i hardly ever revise the things i originally write O:) only when im in a rare mood.. haha

but thank you so much :)
and this poem is a reflection of an evil i have encountered.. something i can empathize with..
some18kanal0n3 Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2008
:) Your very welcome.

Don't worry too much about the grammar, I have a tendency to correct what I read :)
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